When ‘good morning’ turns into bad morning

All of us want to wake up to a cheerful face wishing us ‘good morning’ and if possible it has to be with a power packed puch – like the patent ‘goooooooooood mooooooooooorning’ from Munna Bhai MBBS. Unfortunately my mornings suck now…. Usually at home I’m the first one to step out of bed urging others to `rise & shine`. My mornings aren’t the same now….ever since I have the kiddoooo kicking inside me I usually rise with a heavy head, sullen face and that sickly feeling that I will throw up right now. This legendary morning sickness just won’t end here.. It will take a toll on the rest of your day as well. While everybody around you is greeting you to have a nice day, I secretly wish if this morning sickness fades a bit and I actually get to have a nice day after all. My favourite egg and bread, paratha look like crap… can’t stand the sight or smell of them. Have to live of biscuits as my doc feels that I will throw up lesser if I have stuff like biscuits, rusks etc. First trimester I hate you….. when will this madness end? The worst thing about this whole schedule is that you shouldn’t expect anyone to empathize with your situation. If you discuss a bit about it, suddenly everyone around you will try to goad you like a grandma. General reactions will include statements like “Its ok. “It will end” and some stern ones from mom are “You are not the only one facing this, grow up and don’t throw tantrums”. "Tantrums".... really, i wish that was true :(

When new life starts ticking inside you...

Imagine this - You are sitting in a video conference discussing the communication strategy for an upcoming product launch  and then suddenly you feel 'blip' in your tummy. All your professional aura goes out of the window, and you sheepishly look around thinking, "Did any one notice this?"

Its a new life ticking inside you and happily nudging you. This has happened to me many many times now, and every time I felt super elated, but then I shyly hide my excitement thinking, "I am in office for God's sake."

Had I been at home, I would have jumped with joy and urged the hubby to feel the blip and may be even gloat about it, "How will you realise this feeling? You are not as blessed as me, you can never carry a baby :)."

Its a beautiful feeling to even realise that a new life is clinging on to your system, breathing within you, quietly feeling the world from your perspective. Has this happened to any of you? Do share your experience in the 'comment' section.